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Name: Ashley
Birthday: 5/17/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I pretty much love Music in general..such as Taking back Sunday, Thursday, Glassjaw, Dashboard Confessionals, Brand New, Mindless Self Indulgence..yeah that....and I love my friends, Oh I love Color guard and Band. I like art Kinda....I get sick of it sometimes.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
AIM:  ashleymae1987
MSN: so_sweet2005@hotmail.com
Member Since:
4/28/2004
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| School is ridiculous. I need to crack down on it but it just sucks. I know I will get everything done that I need to but its just the motivation on getting started that I need. I don't want to be done. I think that has to be one of the scariest things I am facing in my life right now. Being cut off? Completely? Will it be hard? Can I take care of myself completely without relying on the help of others. They say your 20s is the time you figure out who you really are. Well I guess we will see. The next step in life after I graduate is become my own...making myself self efficient and being able to provide comfortably for myself. What happens after that? I don't know. But I know that I will have to take it one day at a time to see where life takes me. Its just so scary. I feel too young and immature to find a real grown up job. I will be competely with very qualified people and I just don't see myself like that yet. I need to grow up fast it looks like. | | |
| Time to vent. I think I am doing HORRIBLY this semester. I very very worried. idk whats wrong with me but I'm so sick of school and idk maybe I just don't feel like trying. Probably doesn't help that I'm a bit distracted. I would just rather being doing fun things and I know that's really wrong of me to think but I'm young and I just want to play. Oh well ill mature eventually. I am also still scared that I wont find a job once I graduate. Cus I mean really...what can you do with a Painting Major and an Art History Minor??
I need to work out..really bad. I think I've gained a good 10 pounds since Christmas. Guess the good ole metabolism is slowing down. Thats not a good sign. I hope that it warms up so I can start running again. Hopefully I wont be lazy.
I won't be around much this summer which sucks. Im going to go work for my uncle at Hardings. So Ill be gone for 4 days out of the week. BORING. My parents said I have to make as much money as I can to pay for the next semester. Blah...oh well. Gotta do what ya gotta do. I guess I can hangout on the lake in the evenings. Maybe get my tan on.
I hate this house. I hate that I live with cats. Worst creatures on the face of the planet. And the smelliest.
Anna and I are plotting ways to rid ourselves of the filthy creatures. We have tried poisonous daffedels and simply leaving the back door open haha. I wouldnt ever kill a cat...but I would let it outside and hope it never returns. Sorry...im a dog person.
k im done.
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| Quick update:
1. I have senioritis
2. I'm going to New Mexico next week to visit my cowboy
3. I'm obsessed with Britney Spears right now...especially Womanizer
That's it....
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| I think I'm addicted to Gloria Jeans Coffee....I find myself craving it even when I'm not at work. I would indulge in this little addiction, since I get it for free, but we just got a nutritional chart telling how much calories and crap is in some of those drinks and damn....I'll be a fatty fo sho.
Sry...random but I could really go for a Coco Loco right now.... ooo or a banana berry split Mmm...
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| So I've been feeling kinda down lately. There's a lot going on right now that I just don't want to deal with. I feel so trapped. I don't feel like I'm doing anything that I really want to do.
School has hit me hard and fast pretty much. There is so much going on so quickly. I realized that I really dont like doing my own art. Im not as good as I think I should be. So i just don't feel a passion for it. It always feels like a chore instead of fun. Arent you suppose to go to school to find a job that you love? Well I dont want to paint. And now Im in the painting program and idk...im regretting it slightly. Im pretty much in a sorority now, my studio that I was suppose to get is now being split with 7 girls. Apparently we are not far enough along to get our own personal studio. So now us 7 girls have to come together and share a small space. Its cool though cus were bringing in like a couch and a refrigerator. But the bad part is that I dont feel like i fit in at all. I hate my stupid shy personality. Im pretty sure Im boring to them anyways and I just cant connect and make friends like a normal person. Im pretty much screwed in life. The girls are nice but they seem to bond with eachother more then me. I feel like an outcast. I always have...all through school, church and now college. Why do i suck so much with people?
I realized though what I do love. I love to read about other artists, and to study them. I think I would really like to write about them. But I dont know what kind of career that is. Maybe like an Art Critic or something...idk. I still want to work in a gallery. See, making art is no fun to me...but appreciating great artsits really does interest me. But its too late in my career in college I think? Idk...this sucks. Stupid being old, yet still young at the same time.
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